I feel like it’s time to make some changes in my online activities, writing projects, and websites/blogs. No definite plans yet, but just sort of thinking out loud here. I know I’ve mentioned on here that changes are coming, and I’ve several times thought I would implement those changes. But I just keep feeling torn about which direction to take.
I finished my Master of Fine Arts in Creative Writing and Poetics three years ago, so I’m planning some projects inspired by things I learned in the MFA program. I did finish an experimental book of erasure poetry, Bad Things Happen, that was published two years ago, but readers seemed uninterested in reading it. Evidently my more esoteric creative projects need to be done for love, and not for readership.
We’ve suffered some major relationship upheavals in our family, too. Long story very short, I’ve been estranged from my kids for three years (I will not share details, please don’t ask). It’s the most gut-wrenching, soul-crushing thing I’ve ever experienced. I was suicidal in the beginning, but have come a long way since then. With the help of counselors and support groups, I’ve learned to cope with, and accept, the unacceptable and unimaginable.
This blog used to be called “Life: The Journey” and documented our family’s experience with my husband’s degenerative brain disorder. Many readers found it helpful and I was told it was inspiring to others going through difficult, senseless experiences.
Sometimes, I feel like I’d like to share the things I’ve learned over the past three years as I’ve traversed this latest journey. Grief, heartache, rejection, depression, suicidality, hopelessness, hopefulness, mental health issues, physical health, hospitalizations, etc.
Currently I’m going through a class on DBT (Dialectic Behavior Therapy). Each week, I find I learn at least one — often more than one — thing that I find so helpful. I’ve been wanting to share some of those ideas and practices with others. Simple ideas that can help people cope through difficult and challenging times. And even just the mildly annoying times we all face, even in the best of times. I’m tossing around the idea of sharing each week something learned from the DBT class. I asked folks on my Facebook page yesterday, and several people expressed interest in that topic.
Anyway, I thought I’d just think out loud here and see if any of this resonates with anyone.